Recognition

Lately, I've been doing things on my own, especially during these few months. I don't really have a close friend or a good friend by my side all the time, half the time, or even at any time. I seldom talk, too, because I feel so out of place. In fact, I AM out of place. Nevertheless, I still try to approach to a few people to make sure that the sociable and friendly side of me still exists now..

I'm actually starting to get used to this - being on my own.

(But of course, I know I have the most supportive best and close friends just a call away, and I'm thankful for that. But this is me talking about things literally.)

Today, after my first class of the day, I was walking back from The Rotiman Bakery with my bread in my bag and my head feeling slightly relieved that I wouldn't be starving in class. It's always been Chocolate Bread Thursday for a few months now. I hate going for lunch alone, so I choose bread instead, since it's cheaper and I can gobble it down my throat if I'm rushing or feeling like getting my lunchtime over with. Also, it's because the bread's always readily there. And I like the idea of grabbing my food, paying it and going off right away. There's no need for me to wait at all.

Back to the walking down part. While walking past strangers and more strangers, a guy smiled at my direction. (It was the kind of smile that's genuine, not forced or anything. It was as though he saw a good friend that he hadn't seen in awhile.) I nearly turned behind but I didn't. Then I thought, wait, isn't he my classmate? Is he greeting me? Then his hand moved up and waved. Oh, he is. I was right! Silly me. I smiled.

It's good to know that people actually notice you. He never said hi or smiled or even shown any signs of recognition to me in class before (to be honest I don't even know his name), all we had were just random coincidental glimpses. Well basically, that's what I have with nearly all of my classmates - just random coincidental glimpses. What happened today actually lifted up my mood a bit, and it feels good. So I just want to say, thank you. :) I haven't had that and felt that way in a long time.

Please do not misunderstand me, I'm just happy that I'm being noticed as a friend or a classmate or an acquaintance. Whatever it is that we are.

Now back to studying and completing my tuition homework. Gah.

Signing off,
Cindy.